How do you move on if you’re not completely over it?

I’ve been trying to figure this out.  I don’t think i am over Jason.  I know i still love him.  But i have met other guys.  I know i need to move on because Jason doesn’t want me, but i’m still unsure of what i want.  I want to move on, but i think i’m scared of getting too attached to someone and getting hurt. 

Well i don’t think it’s entirely true.  I mean i am scared to do that here in Boston.  If i just wanted sex, then i have had opportunities to just have sex.  I just don’t think i’m the type of person who can just have sex and nothing else.  I need to like the person.  I liked having feelings for the person i was having sex with.  I liked being able to look into his eyes and know i loved him and he loved me.  It might sound cheesy, but i just don’t think i’m the one night stand type of person.  In my sociology class i read an article how teenagers more and more are just hooking up, and not forming real relationships.  Even the girls who say it’s just sex and there are no feelings, still wind up getting up hurt cause you can’t just shut off your feelings.  If you are spending time with someone and sharing that deep physical connection it’s hard to believe that no feelings at all are going to form. 

So that being said.  I think it’s almost impossible to have a relationship based on sex, nothing else, and not get hurt when it ends.  Even if it’s the pain of not being able to call up this person and get the pleasure you need, and no real deep emotional feelings, i think you are going to get hurt.  So i think i need to have real feelings for a person to have sex with them.  And i met a guy who seems nice, and we aren’t taking things too fast, but i know i am going back to NY in like less than two months.  So i don’t know if i can handle just dating someone for two months and knowing it isn’t going to go any further.  I mean it might be just want i need.  Something not too serious, and fun, but not just something random.  Taking the time to get to know someone, but knowing that you aren’t going to go too far.  

I don’t know what i can handle.  I don’t want to stop something before it starts, but i just don’t want to get hurt.  Or hurt someone else.  I mean he is staying in Boston or right outside, and i am going to leave.  I would feel bad to lead him on.  I don’t know.  I still know i’m not over Jason, but that i need to move on.  

I heard this quote once that “Life is a dance, you learn as you go,” and i think that’s what i’m experiencing right now.  Life is leading me into sometihng new and different and i should embrace it, and learn where i am going.  Don’t just give up because it seems hard.  After all, practice makes perfect .