I feel like i am still constantly thinking about Jason. Part of the time i’m missing him, another part of the time i’m hating him, and then sometimes i’m just wondering what he is doing.
Like i am totally doing better, and he doesn’t consume my thoughts all the time, but it’s still a lot of the time. I just wonder if he is going to be on my mind till i can replace him or if I am still going to think of him when i have someone else. I want to think about other things, and not just him. But i find when i’m running on the treadmill or walking to class, basically times when i’m alone and not doing anything, i am thinking about him. I then also wonder if he thinks about me. Like when we were together we talked or texted all the time. I can’t say what he is thinking or feeling, but i wish i could. Or maybe i don’t, i don’t know. All i know is that after everything that has happened, i do still miss him.
