This makes sense. We grow with everything we experience. No matter what it is, good or bad, we learn and grow from what we experience in life and that makes us who we are.
Sometimes it’s hard to see the good through the bad, but i think eventually we all make it through and maybe even come out stronger.
I feel like in the past two and half months i have grown. I feel by even maybe just starting to accept the fact that we’re over is a big thing. Like i know i’m far from completely over it, but the fact that i’m slowly starting to move on is a big improvement.
I realize my growth, by seeing someone else who hasn’t grown. I think it’s not always best to compare one to someone else, but sometimes we need to look to others to see how we have grown. My friend and her boyfriend broke up probably a couple weeks after Jason and I, and she is kind of living in denial. Like she really hasn’t dealt with it. Like i spent months crying, and being upset over it, and yes there are still times when i need to cry, but i do it because i’m dealing with it. She is not dealing with it, and plans to like change her life for this guy who doesn’t even want her. It’s hard to hear someone doesn’t want you, believe me i know! but she plans on staying boston instead of going to NY after graduation in hopes that he’ll want her back. It seems ridiculous to make such a sacrifice for something so unpredictable and, the way i see it, someone unworthy.
I won’t lie, i sometimes i wonder if Jason and i will get back together (or just even talk), and have little fantasies, but at the end of the day i’m not planning on changing my life for him. I go out and meet people. I’m going back to NY because that was my plan all along, and if we happen to see each other we’ll see what happens, but right now i’m just trying to focus on me and my life. My friend should focus on her life, and trying to be happy. Her staying in Boston is not going to make her happy, and she needs some way to realize this.
Life is tough and things don’t always work out the way we plan, but we have to grow from these experiences. It’s taken me a long time to realize this, and maybe i still don’t fully grasp it, but i’m trying. I think that’s the best we can do. Just try. We can’t sit around in a deluded world, because you won’t be happy. And in the end i think our own happiness is what is most important.
