it’s so nice out, and it hs been really nice the past few days. I feel like you can’t help but be in a good mood 
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It’s kind of weird tho because sometimes it makes me miss him more, cause i wish i could share this beautiful day with him, but other times it makes me see how good things are and that i really should just try hard to move on and not let it bother me anymore.
I feel so torn most of the time, and have such mixed emotions. Like i loved him still, but he hurt me, and i shouldn’t want to be with someone who could hurt me that badly. And i know there are other people out there… i think i’m just lazy sometimes. I liked having someone who knew me so well, and i could share anything with. It seems hard to have to meet someone new and redo all that. But it could be exciting. Life is continuously changing and we have to learn to grow and adapt to that change.
I know i have issues with change… and endings. So i know this is tough for me, but i dunno days like today just make me think that life is still good, and is open for a million new possibilities
