I know i say i hate change, but sometimes i feel like i want a change. Like i want to make a change in my life… i dunno if this sounds dumb, but to kinda help to move on. Like i want to make me different from who i was before, since i don’t think i am the same person now.
I don’t want to cut my hair.. i love it too much. I don’t want to dye it because everyone tells me all the time how much they love the color, and it’s pretty much a mix of red, brown, and blonde soo there really isn’t another color i would want. I dont think i want to pierce anything. Like i have my ears pierced, so i dont really want more in them, i don’t want anything on my face since i’m heading out into the professional word very very soon. So i don’t need something on my face, and my stomach is not flat enough for my liking to get my belly button pierced.
Sooo.. the thing i have been thinking about for a while now is a tattoo. I’ve always kinda wanted one, but if i got one i want it to be meaningful. Not just something random, and i want it to be someplace kind of hidden… like on my hip, so not everyone can see it. Also if one day when i’m old and i regret it it won’t be out in the open. Also i want something small.
Soo i’ve been thinking i want a hamsa.
it’s believed that hamsa’s are supposed to protect you from the evil eye. Also it has a fish which jews believe is supposed to bring good luck. So i feel like if i got a smallish one on my hip that it would be cool. It wouldn’t be something completely random, it would mean something, and it would be sort of hidden.
I don’t know if my parents would want me to get a tattoo.. i know i am 21 so it’s up to me, but i’ll be living in their house after college and they still support me for now, so i wouldn’t want to do something that would make them mad. Also in the jewish faith you can’t be born in a jewish cemetery if you have a tattoo, which i don’t know for sure i want to, but i guess it makes me nervous that i can’t.
I dunno, i know a bunch of jews with tattoos, so i don’t think the whole cemetery thing would stop me. I guess i’m just not 100% sure that i want it. I really think i do though. It seems like it would be cool to get, and it’s meaningful so that it good too. I don’t know.. I just feel like i need a change. I need to do something out of character for me. Maybe i’m too boring..
I dunno… i feel like i need a change.
