Sunday is graduation. I’m both incredibly excited, and nervous. I’m excited to be done. Like i’ve been going to school for what 16 yrs? It will be nice to not have to go to school, but then again i’ll need to get a job. Like a job for the rest of my life. Soo it’s a little scary knowing that i’m not longer in school, and that i’m entering into the real world. eek!
i’m also still nervous to go home… i think i’m delusional. I have these fantasies that i’m going to go home and see jason and you know things will be good again. but i am doubtful of that. I don’t want to think like this, but i can’t help it. I really do still miss him so much. I know it’s been almost 4 months, but i miss him. I still love him.. i hate him too, but i dunno i just miss having him in my life. He was my best friend for a year and a half and even though i do have lots and lots of friends, it’s just not that same.
I’m also excited to go to Europe for two weeks next wed! It should be a lot of fun! I’m going with like one of best best friends soo i’m really looking forward to that. After that trip though it’s like back to the real world, and looking for a job. Realizing that i am home… and my hope/dread of running into Jason since we live like 10 mins from each other.. ughhh
